The Swamp

Posted: **Wed Mar 25, 2020 6:26 pm**

duff wrote: ↑Wed Mar 25, 2020 6:03 pm So power has just gone out in our neighborhood. No idea when they will get it back on. Wife is freaking out about food and what to do tomorrow if we don't have power. Just trying to reassure her everything will he fine.

Out on its own or was there weather? Random outage shouldn’t be worse than a few hours.

Posted: **Wed Mar 25, 2020 6:45 pm**

Good luck, Duff.

I noticed I was a lot more anxious today and part of that is going out this morning, but I think it's because it's windy here and I'm always on edge when it's windy ("regular" spring winds here can be really destructive). After today the weather is supposed to be pretty nice for awhile (even up into the 70s next week), so feel like I just need to hang on today.

Posted: **Wed Mar 25, 2020 9:35 pm**

Not sure what caused the outage. Wasn't weather. Got it all back on just around nine EST. So all is good again in the Duff household.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 9:55 am**

City owned golf course where I've been spending my mornings with the dog has been shut.

Makes no sense as the other city parks (but not off-leash parks) remain open.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am**

So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:27 am**

Right now? No. If I get it? Maybe.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:31 am**

DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.

Yes.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:36 am**

DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.

Last night was the first that me dying because of this crossed my mind.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:37 am**

No.

But I am starting to freak out whenever I think about what the hospitals are going to be like soon.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:37 am**

Yup. I haven't shown any signs at all and have done fairly well at the social distancing thing even if I have been supporting our restaurants via takeout a little too much.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:39 am**

Pruitt wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:37 am No.

But I am starting to freak out whenever I think about what the hospitals are going to be like soon.

That’s my concern as well. All the more reason to stay home and limit contact as much as possible.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:40 am**

brian wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:39 am
Pruitt wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:37 am No.

But I am starting to freak out whenever I think about what the hospitals are going to be like soon.
That’s my concern as well. All the more reason to stay home and limit contact as much as possible.

Even something like - God forbid - breaking a bone. I mean, what do you do if that happens?

Shit - I'm going to meditate.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:41 am**

And my answer is yes in large part because of the hospital thing.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:42 am**

I had a mini freak-out yesterday about how we don’t have a thermometer at home and managed to track down what may have been the last one available in the St. Louis region. Thank you Target. Others here have noted that normal seasonal allergy symptoms can be stressful in these times and I’m pretty sure that’s what happened with me yesterday. My wife (a doctor) was mad at me for even going to Target but I’m reassured that we’re at least can check our temps as needed.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:43 am**

From a cruelly utilitarian point of view we would at least be more likely to get on a ventilator if necessary because of our relatively young ages.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:52 am**

Pruitt wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:40 amEven something like - God forbid - breaking a bone. I mean, what do you do if that happens?

Feels like you watched my reaction to my 5 year old running full speed downhill on concrete.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 11:22 am**

Glad to hear I'm not the only one having those thoughts. Mine were triggered by the long conversation about how we will deal with Kelsey, in case she gets sick...My GF and her are probably the most likely vectors for getting exposed.

Not that I'm afraid of dying...just worried about my girls.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 11:59 am**

Yeah. I've had this weird oral memory from childhood and used to recur but kinda went away after kid age though I remember it clearly. Last night I swore it was a premonition of death on a breathing machine. Still believe it tbh.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 12:19 pm**

With allergies kicking in, yeah, thought crosses my mind every day. Not so concerned about dying, but getting it bad and debating whether to go to the hospital. I feel a little better as my doctor, who is the chair of the Family Medicine practice in my wife's system stopped by to visit her the other day and made her promise several times that we would call his cell directly if we need anything. The guy is awesome, and we have hung out at various hospital fundraisers and events. I normally wouldn't feel comfortable cashing in on favors, but this guy genuinely means it and would be hurt if we didn't call him. At least I could get a FaceTime monitoring to let me know when it's time to go to the hospital.

What I'm more afraid of is getting sick and needing to take care of the kids, because my wife can't be home. I'm also afraid of her getting sick, because she still goes in. Fortunately not to the hospitals yet, but she has doctors in her offices all the time. They actually started taking everyone's temps before they can enter. We got a mini-fridge for the guest room and still discussing isolating my wife in that part of the house.

Funny thing, I've been hesitant to eat edibles, because I get super sensitive to my sinuses. It's weird. I have a deviated septum and I'm too scared of the surgery, so I've ignored it. First thing I feel with the edibles, I can feel the insides of my sinuses with every breath. Ordinarily, it's nothing. It's the first sign of the weed kicking in, which makes me happy. With allergy sinus issues, I get super focused on it, and with the virus, I don't want to spiral thinking about it.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 2:50 pm**

The Sybian wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 12:19 pm With allergies kicking in, yeah, thought crosses my mind every day. Not so concerned about dying, but getting it bad and debating whether to go to the hospital. I feel a little better as my doctor, who is the chair of the Family Medicine practice in my wife's system stopped by to visit her the other day and made her promise several times that we would call his cell directly if we need anything. The guy is awesome, and we have hung out at various hospital fundraisers and events. I normally wouldn't feel comfortable cashing in on favors, but this guy genuinely means it and would be hurt if we didn't call him. At least I could get a FaceTime monitoring to let me know when it's time to go to the hospital.

What I'm more afraid of is getting sick and needing to take care of the kids, because my wife can't be home. I'm also afraid of her getting sick, because she still goes in. Fortunately not to the hospitals yet, but she has doctors in her offices all the time. They actually started taking everyone's temps before they can enter. We got a mini-fridge for the guest room and still discussing isolating my wife in that part of the house.

Funny thing, I've been hesitant to eat edibles, because I get super sensitive to my sinuses. It's weird. I have a deviated septum and I'm too scared of the surgery, so I've ignored it. First thing I feel with the edibles, I can feel the insides of my sinuses with every breath. Ordinarily, it's nothing. It's the first sign of the weed kicking in, which makes me happy. With allergy sinus issues, I get super focused on it, and with the virus, I don't want to spiral thinking about it.

I don't have a family doctor right now. I went for a physical for the first time in years about a year and a half ago and did not care at all for the woman we saw, so I haven't been back. I guess I'm technically a patient? I've had no communication from them in 1.5 years.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 8:44 pm**

DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.

I know this is a weird, baseless thought, but if its my fate in life to spend 15 years binge drugging, finally turn my life around, hit a year sober and then have my body decide a virus is going to kill it, then so fucking be it. I've been on borrowed time for a long time anyway.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:20 pm**

TT2.0 wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 8:44 pm
DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.
I know this is a weird, baseless thought, but if its my fate in life to spend 15 years binge drugging, finally turn my life around, hit a year sober and then have my body decide a virus is going to kill it, then so fucking be it. I've been on borrowed time for a long time anyway.

That's the drugs talking, you'll be fine. In fact at least you've been clean so your lungs should be in way better shape than they would have been otherwise probably.

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:21 pm**

If I'm being honest I think things like "why did I let myself gain 40 pounds?"

Posted: **Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:21 pm**

But too late now fuckers. We're riding this out with the ammo we got.

Posted: **Fri Mar 27, 2020 8:22 am**

TT2.0 wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 8:44 pm
DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.
I know this is a weird, baseless thought, but if its my fate in life to spend 15 years binge drugging, finally turn my life around, hit a year sober and then have my body decide a virus is going to kill it, then so fucking be it. I've been on borrowed time for a long time anyway.

I'd imagine that thoughts like that are not uncommon. Your making it to a year of sobriety is a definite highlight of this so far shitty year.

Posted: **Fri Mar 27, 2020 11:23 am**

Pruitt wrote: ↑Fri Mar 27, 2020 8:22 am
TT2.0 wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 8:44 pm
DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.
I know this is a weird, baseless thought, but if its my fate in life to spend 15 years binge drugging, finally turn my life around, hit a year sober and then have my body decide a virus is going to kill it, then so fucking be it. I've been on borrowed time for a long time anyway.
I'd imagine that thoughts like that are not uncommon. Your making it to a year of sobriety is a definite highlight of this so far shitty year.

Thank you. Its very very weird to me that people actually watch my sobriety and care. Just as a core concept, its hard for my brain to accept. I don't quite know what to say

Posted: **Tue Mar 31, 2020 4:34 pm**

I can not remember having this much trouble getting work done.

What should literally have taken 2-3 hours seems to have dragged on for two days.

Posted: **Tue Mar 31, 2020 5:11 pm**

DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:26 am So....serious question time: Is anyone else concerned about, ya know, dying from this? Because I got that thought last night.

No but within the past few days I've been legitimately concerned about parents and grandparent.

Posted: **Tue Mar 31, 2020 5:19 pm**

My mom is 70, has smoked for 55 years and gets winded walking to get the mail so I’m definitely trying to get her to take this seriously which she seems to be doing.

Posted: **Tue Mar 31, 2020 6:06 pm**

Gunpowder wrote: ↑Tue Mar 31, 2020 5:11 pmNo but within the past few days I've been legitimately concerned about parents and grandparent.

In the past week I’ve accepted the kids schools are going to lose parents over this which is a super fucked up place to be. A minimum of three parents in her 3rd grade have it already.

Posted: **Tue Mar 31, 2020 6:17 pm**

Sister facility of ours is in one of the worst zones in France. 400+ people in a smaller region already dead. Spoke with a friend and he says everyone has a family member, friend, or neighbor who has already died. I’ve spent lots of time there and love it (right by Colmar in Alsace) and have good friends. It’s hitting them on family, social, and economic levels. That place will never be the same. And this is an area that has survived both world wars. And it’s not even on the radar for the wider issues.

I’m terrified y’all.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:44 am**

So we found out yesterday afternoon that the State has given orders to the Agency that provides/coordinates all of Kelsey's care that they need to limit her possible exposure and that going forward there can be no 'back and forth', no visits, no outside people.

Which means that the GF (and her Ex) can't see Kelsey until this is all over. Which I know makes sense, but its going to be so hard on Kelsey. We are going to try facetiming with her a couple of times a day, but she won't understand what's going on.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:48 am**

DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:44 am So we found out yesterday afternoon that the State has given orders to the Agency that provides/coordinates all of Kelsey's care that they need to limit her possible exposure and that going forward there can be no 'back and forth', no visits, no outside people.

Which means that the GF (and her Ex) can't see Kelsey until this is all over. Which I know makes sense, but its going to be so hard on Kelsey. We are going to try facetiming with her a couple of times a day, but she won't understand what's going on.

Oh shit. At first, I thought the helpers weren't going to be able to visit and you and your GF would have to take her in. Not sure which is worse... Sorry Dave, this is tough.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:53 am**

The Sybian wrote: ↑Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:48 am
DaveInSeattle wrote: ↑Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:44 am So we found out yesterday afternoon that the State has given orders to the Agency that provides/coordinates all of Kelsey's care that they need to limit her possible exposure and that going forward there can be no 'back and forth', no visits, no outside people.

Which means that the GF (and her Ex) can't see Kelsey until this is all over. Which I know makes sense, but its going to be so hard on Kelsey. We are going to try facetiming with her a couple of times a day, but she won't understand what's going on.
Oh shit. At first, I thought the helpers weren't going to be able to visit and you and your GF would have to take her in. Not sure which is worse... Sorry Dave, this is tough.

Well...that's the other option. Which isn't an option at all, since my GF has to work (as a health care worker, she's considered essential) and I'm working remotely.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 10:38 am**

Damn, Dave. I'm sorry.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 10:39 am**

Oh man, that's rough. I can't imagine...

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 10:43 am**

rass wrote: ↑Wed Apr 01, 2020 10:39 am Oh man, that's rough. I can't imagine...

Thanks everyone....we kinda knew something like this was going to happen, but we thought it would be in response to someone (Kelsey, us, a caregiver) getting the bug.

Just another thing that's happening in the world that we have no control over.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 11:22 am**

That's just brutal.

So sorry to hear it.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 11:23 am**

Sorry to hear that DiS.

Posted: **Wed Apr 01, 2020 11:27 am**

Yeah, that's just shitty for all concerned, including Kelsey.

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