I love you, Dad

[L-Jam3]

I view this as God calling a good man home. My father, the rock and North Star of my family, passed away last night. It was an amazing run of 85 years, and I'm blessed that I've had him as my dad for over 49 years. We had to make an excruciating decision to stop life-support, but I'm comforted that his bride of 55 years, his three sons, his oldest granddaughter, and his favorite daughter-in-law, were at his side. We played a run of Sinatra to put him to his rest. He went at 8:32 last night; I'd like to think that the Maxey 3-ball to tie and Brunson's slip up in OT had an extra hand influencing it. Either that, or God just said "fuck the Knicks". Either one makes me smile. It was still on my Spotify when I drove back, and when I pulled into my driveway "Young at Heart" was finishing up, so that seemed like a good omen too.

I'm not at all a crier. I didn't cry when my sister died from an overdose 5 years ago. It's not that I don't feel the pain. I do. I just tend to internalize it. And I didn't cry at all last night, or when they gave him Last Rites on Sunday. But I finally did a little just now when I was posting my Instagram. I'm at my parents' (I'm not ready to change that term yet), and I'm the only one here with my brother's pup, so I was a had a chance to let out a little moist eyes.

[degenerasian]

Thanks for sharing your heartfelt experience. It sounds like he was a great man and loved by all. My condolences to you and your family.

[Johnny Carwash]

Condolences L-Jam and thanks for sharing. Your Instagram post was great as well.

[govmentchedda]

Rest in Peace, L-Jam2

[Nonlinear FC]

Condolences, my man. Thanks for sharing... I know I find it cathartic to get stuff written down and this place is a great place to just... Let it out.

[A_B]

Sorry for your loss. It's never easy, the hurt never really goes away, but it gets easier. Cold comfort now, of course.

[Steve of phpBB]

My condolences, L-Jam. Thank you for posting that.

[Giff]

I'm so sorry, L-Jam. It's a really rough feeling, but it sounds like you have a lot of great memories to keep alive.

"The dark road doesn't seem so dark if you've never seen the light."

[DSafetyGuy]

My best to you and your loved ones, L-Jam.

[mister d]

Sorry, LJam. Sounds like he was a great dad.

[DaveInSeattle]

Sorry for your loss my friend. May his memory continue to be a blessing. Best to you and your family.

[rass]

Condolences buddy.

[Johnnie]

My condolences, man. Losing your father is tough. It'll be 20 years this September for me. You just have to keep your memories of him strong in your mind and heart and he'll always be around.

[GoodKarma]

My condolences as well...very nice post...well said.

[sancarlos]

Really sorry for your loss, bud. Great post.

[HaulCitgo]

Thanks for sharing. Well pray for your family.

[Pruitt IV]

Your post made me tear up.

Sounds like your Dad was a great guy and that he's left a wonderful legacy.

[brian]

Best to you and your family, Lenny.

[bfj]

May your Dad’s memory be a blessing to all who knew him. So sorry for your family’s loss.

[Jerloma]

Very sorry for your loss, Lenny. Grieve hard and take comfort in your memories.

[Rush2112]

So sorry for your loss L-Jam. Glad that you and your close family were with him when he walked across that bridge.

Lost my dad almost 20 years ago. Saddened the most that he never got to meet my wife or my kids, glad my mom is still going as strong as she is (she turned 90 in Feburary.)

[wlu_lax6]

Sorry for the loss L-Jam. May the good thoughts and memories warm your families heart a bit.

[MaxWebster]

L-Jam best wishes to you - that's a fantastic loving tribute to your dad.

and keep calling it your parents' house - we do that for my in-laws.

[tennbengal]

Thoughts to you, L-jam, and your family.

[Shirley]

Man, I'm sorry to hear that, man. It's great that his family was around at the end though. I think that's all we can hope for - that our family loves and cares enough to be there.

[The Sybian]

Sorry for your loss Lenny, nice that everyone could be there for your mother.